painful-wake

As I fell into deep sleep last night, I wished and I wished hard. I wished to keep on falling. I wished to never stop. I wished away everyone, everything. If it weren't for you, I would have wished never to wake up

How many questions have gone through my head? Why? How? Wasn't I good enough? What did I do wrong? Wondering, did you even think of me? Does he tell her those things that he told me? Do they go the places we used to go? Do the things we used to do? Every time I see you together and every time I hear you say her name it cuts into me as fresh as if that knife was still in your hand. With four little words you tore out my heart and held it in front of my eyes. Do you know how much this is hurting me? Do you care? You look at her with those eyes that used to look at me with, kiss her with the lips you kissed me with, touch her in just the way you

I want to hug out the sad, Kiss away the unhappies, Know how to make you smile, When your feeling crappy. Because you do the same for me, But you don't even try. You just put your arms around me. As I start to cry. Cuddle me close Wipe my tears from my cheeks There's noone I'd rather held me, When my face leeks So let me hold you When it all seems like shit Because your my antidrug babe And I'll never quit

You said you were mad I could have guessed You told me you hated me I excpected no less You shouted abuse I knew there was no use, in replying So I didn't reply Yet  he's  on  my  mind And I feel sick as I cry myself to sleep tonight. Because this time, he didn't ask why...

they break her spirit crush her life but give her strength to lift that knife not one soul gone but more that night others - friends, and family into the shining light the mother who found her youngest child dead eyes closed, asleep in pools of red the sister who's last words echo around her life thinking of her sister alone and cold in death friends who lean on each other and look inwards for support find deep within themselves what she needed all along bullies who point the finger and pass around the blame but when their arms get tired silently accept it was them

Lets go out We'll all dress in black Ride in special cars Cry into our hands We can say proper words Gather around Call up old friends Arms crossed, Heads down Talk to the sky Fill up our eyes Travel all across town But let someone else drive We'll say our goodbyes Hold onto each other Promise not to forget Or let go of another So, lets go out We'll all dress in black But tell the driver to go slow My best friend is in the back